Ugh.. I hate this feeling.

I haven't written in a while but I feel the need to talk about this and none of my good friends are on so I can't talk about it with anyone.



There's this guy that I have liked for a really long time. We get along fabulously and have really good conversations and stuff. The other day I asked him to hang out hoping that we would you know.. kiss and stuff. Then we had this msn conversation:



Me: we could just do what we always do!

Him: watch a movie?

me: yuh!

him: kay imma be straight up. just to aviod awkwardness. i dont know if you realized but i had a bf for about a month. aha. (not anymore).

fuck this.

Ringolos

This post is dedicated to Terry Robins. He is a BUTTFACE. I hate him greatly. He is mean and always makes fun of me and I just want to kill myself ALL THE TIME.

Anyways. I was kidding. This kid makes me smile. He's super nice and awesome. I really hope he reads this and realizes how barf worthy he is.

Love Clinton. :)

on that glorious morn..

Hello little internet buddies! I haven't written anything in a LONG time, and I need to update. So, I am still single! JOY. But, I'm enjoying it I guess. It's not that fantastic the only thing I miss is weirdly the drama. So I created some today.

I sent Craig a little drawing of a cartoon penis with "lol!" beside it just as a joke and of course he had something to say. Oh what fun it was! I laughed and laughed and laughed again at his childish responses! Especially after he decided that my little MSN personal message was about him. It said "LOL. for once i know that i look better then you ever will!" I love how he automatically assumes its about him. It wasn't at all, the idiot. The universe doesn't revolve around him. The reply he had after I told him that NO, it most certainly was not about him, he said, "it doesn't matter. but you probably don't look better than them either." That made me laugh like a baby playing peek-a-boo! So joyously! It was great fun!

Anyways, after all this I got the idea for this blog. But I think now I will turn my attention to more IMORTANT matters. The musical is in 15 days! It's so exciting! The stage looks awesome! I's so excited!

Okay little ghosts! I'm going out for pasta with the family! I'll write again soon!

Letter (old)

Okay, so before I got dumped, I wrote letters to my boyfriend. This is one of the older ones. I found it and then remembered why I didn't give it to him for Valentine's.

Dear Craig Ryan,
I'm questioning my love for you. I don't know why. You don't talk to me as much, you always leave me by myself. I still like you a lot but I don't know if I love you.
-Clinton

So, obviously I loved him because it hurt a lot when I got dumped. :P

Letter (newest)

Dear Craig Ryan,
What the fuck is your problem? Seriously. I apologized. I don't want this stupid bullshit anymore. I don't understand how you can hold a grudge and hate me so much that you can't even have a polite, civilized conversation. It's ridiculous and you need to grow up a little bit and put the past behind you. I am sorry. I am. This is somewhat off topic but, I want to hang out with Jillian soon but I can't even go to your house without wanting to beat the crap out of you. I have every right to be mad. You dumped me. You're still rude to me. Kind of stupid, I must say. This happened like a month ago? Get over yourself you egomaniac. GO TO SCHOOL; MAKE FRIENDS AND STOP BEING ANTI-SOCIAL; GET A REAL LIFE! Best advice I can give.
-Clinton
P.S. Your new hair makes you look fake and also like a 14 year old LESBIAN.

Welcome back

Hello there. So, as everyone knows, well, nearly everyone, this weekend was a long one, and an easter filled one. How fun, right?
Right.
On Friday, I woke up after sleeping in, what a nice sleep. Anyways, woke up, packed, and got into the car for 2 and a half hours. Not so fun. Although, I had my music and I was dancing like a fool. We finally got to my Gramma and Papa's house. A.K.A. THE GREATEST GRANDPARENTS EVER. My cousins, Kyla, Alex, Rylea, and Graeyson were there. Kylan and Alex are both awesome. The other two are young and punt-able. Funny story, EVERYTIME I see my cousin Rylea, she jumps up to hug me when I'm sitting down and her head ALWAYS connects with my face. There's usually blood. Anyways, My cousin Kyla brought her boyfriend, he's a nice guy. Also,
Okay off topic. I just looked outside and it`s snowing. I think I might cry.
ANYWAYS, we ate, talked, yadda-yadda. Family stuff.
Saturday in the morning, my mom, sister, gramma and I went shopping. I bought YELLOW converse and some CD's. Fun!
Saturday afternoon, I hung out with this guy named Terry. He was soooo nice. Very attractive, and fun to talk to. We went to his house, watched movies, talked a lot and such...
Sunday, went to Acton. Saw my Nana and Grandad. They are terribly boring. I also saw one of my best friends! She is wonderful.
We went to Tim Hortons, and talked a lot. It was fun. Then we saw an asian girl that has mental issues. I'm a terrible person and I know I'm going to hell for this, but I laughed at her because she was meowing and running and flailing her arms. It was mean, I know, but it was quite funny.
Monday, slept, cleaned, and went to the beach with my friend Megan. That was fun. We went to WalMart and got chocolate. Then I went home and slept.
Tuesday, SCHOOL. Ugh. I did have rehearsal though and that was fun. Then I had rehearsal Wednesday until 7. Then yesterday again. And there you go.
Updated completely. Also, Wednesday, I heard that a boy named Cole Goforth was discriminated against for being himself. This seriously pisses me off. I've never met the guy, and I have never talked to him but I am on his side and if he needs me, I certainly help out. Fellow little monsters don't have to deal with that. All the best Cole!
I also have a party tonight. Karaoke. YEAH.
I'll write again soon lovies. :)

So Excited...

So, today, ONLY TODAY, I found out that myspace is hosting GLEE auditions. I am the BIGGEST GLEEK ever, so of course, I am going to audition. I'm super excited, let's hope I make it! yay!

Thank You.

Dear Inventor of the "Snooze" button,
I don't know if one certain person ivented the snooze button, but I don't mind. This is the greatest invention in the entire world. Before I got my new sleek alarm clock, I had to actually get up and turn off my old, silver, BELL, alarm clock and I would usually fall back asleep. Now, with my "snooze" setting, I can press it as many times as I want and I just sleep and extra 5 minutes, then wake up, turn it off, and go back to sleep for ANOTHER 5 minutes. But, the great thing is that, when I actually have to wake up, it isn't as bad.

So, whoever you are. You are fantastic.
Thank you.

A Wonderful Day

Good evening!



What a good day today was! As I presumed it would be. I won a coffee on roll up the rim, which was awesome. I tried to win again but failed, it didn't stop me or upset me though! I did have a lovely hot chocolate! So I tried again but alas, I failed yet again! Oh well, the day went on. On my lunch, I went to go practicing singing with Mr. Spencer, the amazing director of music for our musical. Anyways, I bunch of people were there! It was awesome! He even brought out a microphone! It was so awesome. Also, the pit band was there, they are amazing, as I've mentioned.

After school, I went to a guy's house named Mat. Yes, with one "t". Anywhooo, we made hamburgers and watched Jennifer's body and Little Shop of Horrors, both movies that I haven't seen, but I liked both of them! We cuddled basically the entire time and it was wonderful. To be honest, I have no idea how I feel about him though. I'm still broken in the head from being dumped. I don't have any feelings for anyone. I'm over my ex, but I don't have any feelings for anyone.

Oh well! Maybe one day soon I'll figure all this junk out.

Good evening little freaks. :)

Another Quickie.

Good morning!
Is it ever a good morning. The weather is GORGEOUS. It's a little chilly, but I'm sure that will pass and today will be a B-E-A-U-tiful day! I have to go and catch my bus in a few minutes, but I thought I would just share my current feelings.

I woke up in a shockingly good mood, confident that I didn't have to rush around because I made a lunch last night. My mother, gave me money, which only lightened my already wonderful mood, and I am going to be playing badminton when I get to school. How fun?

Today is going to be a good day, I know it.

I will update you on how the day went tonight, little monsters of the internet!
:)

Writer's Block?

This evening, I have been trying to write a journal for English. Sadly, my mind is completely empty. Nothing is flowing. It sucks big time! If I don't get an idea, I have no idea what I'm going to do! My mark in English at the moment is not that.. great but I am trying desperately to bring it up and get a better mark in English than I ever have!



Now, off the topic of English. The Sunday that just passed, I had a rehearsal. I know I already talked about it in another post but I didn't actually talk about what happened.

I woke up at around 8:00AM expecting to wake up at 8:30AM so sadly, I missed half an hour of my desired sleep. So of course, that put me in an even worse mood. I got ready in my usual manner, washing my face, applying cover-up simply to even out my skin, and then straightening and styling my hair to perfection. Sadly, it was not co-operating so I put a head band around it all so it would stay down instead of sticking up crazily. Of course, this caused an argument with my evil step-father. He was saying that I looked stupid and terribly homosexual, of course, he didn't use those words, they were much worse. Words I don't wish to repeat so as to not offend anyone. Eventually I got frustrated and ended up putting him in a bad mood, which in return put me in a bad mood because he was causing unnecessary arguments. I had to pick up my friend Meaghan along the way and of course, all the way to her house, my dad was yelling at me. Finally we got to her house, and the yelling somewhat stopped. He just made fun of me more so he could embarrass me. Meaghan, being the lovely person that she is, did not find this funny, in fact she hates him and it was her first time meeting him. That was the first low-light of my day. The first part of the actual rehearsal was awesome. It was so fun and also tiring but at around noon, Meaghan, Kyle and I went to Subway so Kyle could buy lunch. Kyle, Kyle, Kyle.. Being around him is just so awkward now, but it's not exactly a thing I want to talk about in a blog. Not only did he ask me to walk with him to Subway, he asked to teach him the dance for "Gaston". No eye contact what-so-ever. The rest of the day went swimmingly until Meaghan and I were supposed to be getting picked up. We got out of rehearsal an hour early so we had been waiting for half an hour to get picked up. Then, I called my evil step-father and he said he would be another twenty minutes. Another twenty minutes standing in the freezing cold rain. Great.
He finally showed up and was silent until we dropped Megahan off. Then the yelling started again.

I am sick of this man. So sick of him. I like him, I am just sick of how he treats me and how he talks to me around my friends.
I deserve a little respect and once I get some, maybe I will give it to him in return.

Gooooood Morning!

So yesterday at rehearsal, we discovered that our pit band is absolutley phenominal. They were so amazing. They played the song "If I Can't Love Her" with Court, the Beast, singing. I got chills, honestly, around 3 to 5 times. It was that good. I can't wait for the musical to actually become a musical! We are getting tailored costumes to fit us, and our script is rented from new york. It's pretty high class for a high school production!

On another note, I am having absolutely no luck finding someone to date. I know, it's high school. It really shouldn't matter, but I really want someone! Oh well..
Time to go to school!

Have a good day little internet folk!

Just a quickie!

Good morning interweb.
It's early in the morning. The thing I loathe. I simply had to wake up early today because I have a rehearsal today. Who knows how that's going to go? Singing, dancing, and acting! Going to be a joyous time.

Wish us all luck!

Number one.

Good afternoon children of the internet world! Today I've been thinking a fair bit about what I want to do with my life, particularly what I want to do at this moment in time. Actually, that was a lie to make me seem smarter than I am. I've honestly just sat around all day.


This morning, I woke up at around 12, an early morning for someone like me, anyways, I woke up with a thought. "Today, I am going to do something productive!" Although this was a rather drastic ambition for a day like today, I figured it would be a good idea. So far, I've done nothing. I can choose from a list of things though!

1. Clean my room
2. Clean the basement
3. Make an amazing dinner
4. Find a job, or at least try
5. Start running again
6. Help mom clean upstairs
7. Call someone and find something to do together!
8. Do my english homework
9. Finish my Gramma's easter present
10. Finish decorating my room after I clean it

And the list goes on.

Sadly, I've sat around doing nothing only thinking of doing one of these things. If only there were something to help lazy people such as myself.
THAT'S IT!
Today is the day I am going to invent a pill for laziness.
It will be difficult, I'm sure, but I will try and will not stop until I conquere this quest!

If I could actually do that, I totally wouldn't be blogging about it, but I am, because I think someone should do it. Someone who isn't lazy, like me.

Anyways, I actually should clean my room, it's kind of messy. Enough blogging for today.

Happy following little children of technology! :)